My unlucky day

I am such a fucking idiot.

and I have the worst luck in the world.

I somehow managed to trip over and the bottom of my left foot somehow tore open the big toe nail on my right foot.

LOL.. yeap.

god that pain was excruciating.. I cried and cried and cried and just sat there with my bleeding toe for half an hour with tears streaming down my face.. until the bf finally convinced me to get up and go to the doctors.

As predicted, the doctor couldn't really do anything about it. Part of the toe nail was still attached so he recommended just bandaging it up and waiting for the new nail to grow out. The other option was to inject some anesthetic into my foot and just tearing the whole nail off.. well obviously I took the first option LOL.

So now; 4 days before my trip, I am partly crippled, and can't even walk properly. And then after my doctor told me I probably can't go shoe shopping or hot springs, I cried some more lol

I can't even wear shoes on my right foot, apart from jandals so I have no idea what I am going to do in freezing cold Seoul & Tokyo. Sigh..

But I am over it now. And no matter how much I cry it's not gonna turn back time or magically heal my toe. Shit happens; just gotta deal with it right. And I guess it could've been worse. Bf told me last time when he went overseas, this girl stood on his friend's toe with her high heels, and then his toe turned black and completely died o.o

So yeah.. gonna try be optimistic.

Maybe it won't hurt anymore after a few days or I'll get used to it.

Not gonna let anything ruin my trip!! 

Blogging in the morning!

Wow I don't think I have ever blogged in the morning before..
But the bf is still asleep and I am super bored.
I have such a healthy lifestyle now lol.. wake up at 9-10 automatically without an alarm, and then go to sleep at night at around 12 (except when I work late nights at the bar, but then the next morning I still wake up early ><)
And it's been like this for the past few weeks now.. I feel quite proud of myself.
This is coming from a person who used to sleep at 6am and wake up at 3pm LOL
I guess this is good practice for when I start full-time work.

Umm.. so I don't really know what to blog about.
Last night, I had work at the bar for an EP release party, and they had 3 bands playing.
And quoting my manager cause I don't wanna be stink, she said: "That was absolute torture" LOL
Me and Amanda were planning on going drinking after, but then the music they played was so bad, it totally killed our buzz and almost put me to sleep.
lol I hope they never stumble upon my blog.. cause they were really nice people :p
Next Sat is my last ever shift! Nooooo :(
And apparantly it's a heavy metal event.. oh boy. I think I am going to make an exception, and make cocktails for myself and drink them all night bahaha.. hey, gotta make the most out of my last shift XD

So next week is my last week in Auckland before I go overseas.
Working Mon, Tues, Wed & Fri and then bar on Sat as usual zz.. I swear these 'holidays' have gone by so fast. It's been almost a month since I finished exams!
But it's okay cause I am soo excited about our trip. I will def blog & post heaps of photos this time! Fully regret that I didn't last year, cause I ended up losing all my photos since I lost my phone TT
And I am more excited this year, cause last year I looked like shit after my surgery so I was semi-depressed every time we were taking photos. AND I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT GETTING A NEW CAMERA!
yaaay, I haven't had a camera since high school; I've always just taken photos on my phone.
But I have decided that it's time for me to get one, cause iPhone camera quality is still shitty (maybe it's cause I still have the 4S so it's extra shit)
I'm still deciding between the different Casio 'selfie' cameras. Yeah I'm gonna be vain and get a selfie camera muhaha, I can't help it. I am too in love with the 'wide shot' function. But omg the one I really want - TR15 costs $1000 T_______T  and I am planning on getting iPhone 5S next year so there's no way I can afford that. Boo Casio you whore, why you gotta make it so expensive..
So I am probably going to get the cheaper $500 one, that still has most of the functions, but it doesn't look as nice, and doesn't have built-in Wifi connection.. but I guess I can just buy a Wifi SD card.

ok yay the bf is finally up. I am super hungry! Byebye
x

Confession

I have a confession to make.

I've never been on a proper roller coaster.
Not even the Rainbow's End one haha

(note to self: use this in 'I Never' in the future lol)

It all started back when I was really young, before my parents started doing business, and when my mum used to work at an engineering company (yeah she's actually an engineer *shock horror* lol)
But yeah, she went to Rainbow's End with her colleagues on a company trip one day, and when she came back, she was a mess. She felt so sick she went to bed for the rest of the day.
The next day, I found out it was because of the roller coaster and the pirate ship. She said they had gone on the roller coaster first, and when she got off, she threw up non-stop and felt soo sick and it ruined her whole day. And that has scarred me till this day LOL

Travel sickness/motion sickness actually runs in our family. I used to get so carsick I had to take pills every time we went on a trip that was longer than half an hour. It's actually gotten alot better now, but I still get sick when I sit in the back seat of a car, or near the back in the bus.

But it's not only because I'm scared I will get sick. I'm also terrified of heights and I have watched too many scary movies where the roller coasters break down and everyone dies lol.. So I guess from a young age, I developed this phobia of roller coasters. It's rather embarrassing really.. which is why I don't think any of my friends know. I mean c'mon even lil kids go on them and I'm 22 for gods sake. 

Even on our family trip to Gold Coast, when we went to Dreamworld, I pretty much didn't go on any of the big rides. And early this year when I went to Ocean Park in Hong Kong with the bf, I refused to go on the big roller coasters too, and he said he wasn't gonna go by himself so it made me feel really bad. 

Which is why I think it's time to conquer my fear now. We are going to quite a few theme parks on our upcoming Asia trip so it would be such a shame to miss out again. The bf actually suggested going to try the Rainbows End one before we leave but we just haven't had the time. 

So I am writing this blog as a sort of promise to myself and to you guys, and especially to my bf that I will overcome my fear on this trip. Maybe I should get drunk and then I won't be scared anymore ha; that's actually a pretty good idea

soo yeah.. wish me luck!

And I will def blog about it afterwards ^^

IM GETTING A PUPPY!!!

Well not yet but sooooon!!!

Guys I am so excited!!! I can't believe my wish is finally coming true.. I've wanted a puppy for so long now and FINALLY NOONE CAN STOP ME :D

Anyways so let me start from the beginning shall I.

I just got back from a 2-day trip to Hamilton with the bf. The first day (yesterday) consisted of apartment hunting and more apartment hunting. We literally drove all around Hamilton Central, checking out some places that I had found online. I also went to check out a homestay place from Skykiwi. I don't wanna be sad but that place was so unbelievably shit, there was no way I could live there. There was no kitchen; just a very sad-looking gas stove outside the house, the room was so tiny it could only fit a single bed and the bathroom was so gross-looking I didn't even want to step inside. But the rent was only $90 a week, which was the reason that attracted me to come see it, but I guess I shouldn't have expected much for that price. It did include 500gb of internet though, which I think was its only selling point, apart from the cheap rent haha. I felt really bad though, cause it was owned by an elderly Chinese couple, and they were so nice! It was pretty hard to reject.

So after a whole afternoon of driving around and looking at apartments/flats, we went to Wong's Kitchen for dinner. Finally got to try it! I've heard so many good things about that place; some of my friends even drive down especially just to go there, so I was pretty excited about it. And yeap it did not disappoint; it was the nicest fried chicken I've ever had! They have this sweet herb-y seasoning which tastes like nothing I've tried before. lol we had no idea how big the chicken pieces were so we got 7 pieces, and then turned out that the thigh pieces are actually humongous, and I couldn't even finish one piece LOL, so it was such a waste! But at least now we know for next time lol

After dinner, we went to check out one final place from Skykiwi, which I had already made an appointment to go see. And this is the funny part. Turns out that the guy who owns that place is Brandon's friend, and we also have like 50 mutual friends. I've actually met him before too; seriously such a small world! lol and the whole time, we had been txting in polite Chinese, when we could've just talked in English this whole time haha. But yeah he's a really cool guy, and the place was decent, so I pretty much made my mind up on the spot, especially after he said he doesn't mind pets. And it's also only a 15-min walk to work :) There's actually another girl living at his place; she's called Sarah too, works at Fonterra too, and also does accounting LOL, it was almost kinda scary haha, but she seems really easygoing, so I'm sure we will get along really well.

So yeah, I'm relieved that I can finally lift that weight off my shoulder. My mum has been bugging me everyday about it too so I can finally get her off my back too lol, and yeah the thing I am most excited about of course is getting a puppy!! Soo freaking excited haha

Anyways, so the reason why I had to go down to Hamilton was actually to attend a full-day conference today at Fonterra that my manager asked me to go to, so I could meet the team and get introduced to some of the work the team does and what I would be doing, so I don't get totally overwhelmed on the first day of work. My first rotation is in Business Performance; it's kinda like management accounting, doing budgets and looking at areas of cost-saving etc (which is what I'm more interested in, compared to financial accounting). 

So it was the team's half-yearly meeting, and everyone gave presentations and we had discussions (well they did lol I just listened) talking about ways to improve personal development, successes throughout the year, tips & tricks in software programs etc. I guess I learnt alot today, so it was quite useful, although I couldn't really understand half the things they were talking about. I did learn an awful lot about milk though LOL.. seemed like everything was about milk XD

After the conference, we had a pool tournament at the RSA, and me and my partner actually came first! It was only because he was really pro haha, and we got awarded a certificate, a cute lil trophy and a bag of Favourites chocolates, oh and a pedometer (lol how ironic)

So all in all, it was a pretty productive trip. Won't be going down again until I start in January, and I will probably be moving into the flat the weekend before I start. (which is also 2 days after I get back from my holiday lol) gonna be so busy!! ><

But for now I shall look forward to my overseas trip.. which is happening in less than 2 weeks!! 

And perhaps also start puppy-hunting ;)

Galatos Live

Working 3 nights at the bar this week.

But I'm happy because this is my last three weeks of working at the bar, so I wanna make the most out of it.

I'm really going to miss bartending.. it's the only job out of all my part-time jobs that I've actually loved.

It's been almost two years since I started working at Galatos, yet every time I work it is always a different experience.

I think I got really lucky getting his job; if I had gotten a bartending job at any other bar or club, I probably would've quit by now.

It's because Galatos is a live music venue so every week there is always something different going on; from concerts to auction nights to comedy shows to birthday parties. And I think I've probably seen a band/singer from every music genre.

It's been really awesome, and has really opened my eyes to all the talented people in NZ. Everyone (the old me included) always thinks that NZ artists are nowhere near as good as American or European artists, but it's because they haven't given them a chance. If they really tried listening to some of their music, they might not be as ignorant. For example, one of my faves that has performed at Galatos twice is Jesse Sheehan.

My fave line in this song: 'Sometimes I get so horny I could fuck the sky' haha

Really like his style of music and it's also a plus that he has a really hot drummer (cough Amanda hahahah)

And of course you have Lorde, Stan Walker, Ginny Wigmore, all who have performed at Galatos.

I remember the first time I started working at Galatos, back in March 2011 when it first opened. Galatos actually has been around for decades and was a popular spot in Auckland CBD. But business gradually declined, until eventually it was decided that it would be turned into residential apartments. Then came Andrea & Dean (my current bosses) who bought the place to prevent that from happening. Dean is actually a huge music-lover; he plays the sax and used to be in a band.  So they bought the place, refurbished it from top to bottom, and bam Galatos was re-born.

Anyways I remember the six of us girls working on the first night of the grand opening. It was so chaotic as none of us knew how to bartend. We didn't get any proper training, so pretty much had to figure everything out ourselves. Luckily, I drink a lot so I was familiar with most of the different types of spirits, beer and wine. But still it was a pretty crazy and unorganized night. We kept running out of drinks and coins for change, the Eftpos machine kept breaking down; we really had no idea what we were doing. But it all worked out in the end, and gradually we got better, management became more organized and we got busier and busier, and now we always have at least two events on every Friday & Saturday night (as Galatos has three levels) I am quite proud to say that I have brought in almost 10 events myself (mostly birthday parties) hehe

So yeah.. I really am going to miss Galatos. And Andrea is the nicest boss in the world! For a while, I even thought about buying the place when they retire in a few years but don't know how realistic that idea is haha.

Hello December

I am getting old :(
Went clubbing last night for the first time in months, and now I feel like I just got run over by a train.
Got home at 5 in the morning, slept till 9 and then couldn't sleep anymore so stayed in bed till around 2pm, went out to get some pho, came home took a nap and now I am still in bed loool
And I feel sore all over! Jesus I feel like an old granny lmao
I remember back in the days when I used to go clubbing every week, and sometimes even two nights a week.. thinking back now, I have no idea how I used to be able to do that.

But 'twas a fun night I guess.. had way too many tequila shots >_>
Tequila will be the death of me I swear.
I accidentally drunk-called my mum last night a few times, and then she called me back and I was like 'sorry wrong number' and then I hung up LOL (too drunk to think straight)
and now she just called me to rage at me for waking her and my dad up and worrying about me zzz.. I tried to think of an excuse but I really could not come up with anything.
But yes.. I am not going clubbing again anytime soon.. unless I really have to again lolz
But omg can't wait to go in Taiwan though with everyone! Will be so much fun
And Korea maybe..

Anyways I PASSED ALL MY EXAMS!!
Which means I am officially graduating next year :D
I'm actually kinda scared that I might have missed another compulsory paper.. cause conjoint degrees are so annoying; they have all these requirements.
I wasn't even going to do my finance paper this semester until I went to the Business student office to get them to approve my limited full-time student allowance application, and then they said I had to do another paper. So thank god I went that day, otherwise I would've been so screwed.
But anyways I think it should be fine.. and if it isn't, well it will be uni's fault cause they said I've met all the requirements.
hahaha I felt so relieved when I saw those 3 B's.. seriously can't even believe I got B's, I was fully expecting C's this semester cause I did so shit in all my coursework
But yay just got lucky I guess.. pretty sure my finance and comlaw papers got scaled up so maybe that's why.
Gosh no more uni. I was so happy when I got my results yesterday, but then after awhile I started to feel all sad and sentimental. No more Slurp dates everyday, bumming around in IC0, wagging classes, all-nighters rushing assignments or cramming for tests/exams, playing pool at Kiss, going to Kubick/Angie's Kitchen or the walks up and down Albert Park.. so many memories! Can't believe 5 years went by so fast.. I think I have changed alot throughout uni. I'm really glad I ended up doing a conjoint degree, cause I think the 2 extra years at uni made me more mature, and gave me more time to think about what I really want to do in life.
And I met soo many people at uni; you know they say that most of your lifelong friends will be those people you met at uni. Once you start working, you only have a small group of people who you see everyday. But I hope that's not true cause I like meeting new people ^^

I am really appreciating Auckland these days.
Maybe it is because I am leaving soon but recently there have been alot of cute new eateries that have opened up downtown, and even along Queen St (opposite IMAX).
And I've got to try a few places that I've always wanted to go to.
Like Best Ugly Bagels, Takapuna Beach Store & Cafe, Rhythm Cafe in Parnell, Little & Friday etc. I wanna go to the new hotdog place next!

Bought the cutest moustache coffee mug from Little & Friday yesterday!

The bf was like.. are you even going to use it. And then I quickly came up with "Oh I will use it for work next year!" And then he's like okay then.. hahaha

Okay.. this blogpost is getting long.
Gonna go catch up on my Grey's Anatomy now!

Apartment hunting

Sigh.. time is going by so fast and my to-do list just keeps getting longer and longer..

So I tried to be productive tonight and look for a place to live next year.
Firstly, I had no idea where to even start.
Do I want to live in an apartment? Or rent out a room in a house? By myself? Or flat with other people?  In the city? or in the suburbs where it's cheaper?
But I couldn't even ask myself these questions, cause my only priority was that it allows pets.. LOL

I really really want a puppy next year... I know I sound needy but I think it's the only way to stop me from dying of boredom in Hamilton.
I knew it wouldn't be easy to find a pet-friendly place, but I did not know that most places allow cats but not dogs!! Honestly that is so petcist.. I hate cats.
Well I don't hate cats but they are nowhere near as cute as puppies.
And some of the ads have NO DOGS ALLOWED in capital letters, yet they allow cats and smokers and children.. not like those are any better.. ==

So I went through pretty much every apartment in the city, and even in the suburbs and none of them were pet-friendly. Until I found a site called easyflatmate.co.nz or something like that.. the name is pretty self-explanatory. And some of them actually allowed pets. So I messaged a couple of them.. hopefully they will reply me soon. But the annoying thing is that they are all guys.. sigh I don't really want to flat with a guy.. TT
So now I'm thinking maybe I should just give up on the idea of getting a puppy.. cause I probably won't have that much time to take care of it right? I had this idea in my head that I would go home at lunch to feed it, but that would only be possible if I lived in city close to my workplace.
Arghhhhhh so frustrated!!!

Life update

Hellooo guys,

Haven't blogged in so long! It's been a pretty stressful month, with my last ever university exams and all, but glad that it's all over now! The wait for exam results has been nerve-wracking.. every morning I get up I check Student Services, but still haven't got any back yet.. hopefully I passed everything ><

Been super busy after exams. Thought I would be able to finally relax and enjoy my last ever proper summer break, but I've been working at my parents' business everyday cause they are understaffed atm, and really really busy. So I've been waking up early every morning, and working till 5 in the afternoon. Ugh.. so tired everyday, don't have energy to do anything.

Last night was my friend Halle's engagement/birthday party at Crystal Lounge Bar. Everyone is getting married!!! (Well all of Brandon's friends are hah). One of his good friends is even about to become a dad soon.. lol kinda weird when I think about it. I can't imagine myself getting married for at least another five years, but I'm glad we are on the same page about this. Anyways, happy for all my friends who are entering into a new chapter of their lives! :)

Moving on.. so my start date for Fonterra got moved forward a couple of weeks sigh.. so now I am starting work 4 days after I come back from our holiday. I got a new manager too and she called me last week to ask if I can start earlier, since the current grad is finishing his rotation soon, so she thought it would be a good idea for him to teach me everything in his last two weeks, to allow a smooth transition/handover. I guess it's a good thing for me, so I don't go into work the first day and get totally overwhelmed by everything. I must say.. Fonterra is soo.. active LOL. We have a welcome pizza & drinks next week, and then I'm going down to Hamilton next month, to attend some half yearly conference thing. And we get regular e-mail newsletters, and we're getting paired up with a buddy/mentor soon. I guess that's the good thing about grad programs; they offer you alot of support and help you network and all that jazz.

Something that's been annoying me slightly though is peoples' reaction to me going to Hamilton. That's why I don't really like talking about work, but I always get asked so zzz..
Particularly one person's reaction (who shall not be named cause I am a nice person lol) was all like: "Omg, why are you going to Hamilton.. it's such a shithole.. man good luck with that ay hahahah,' and then he proceeds to keep laughing as if it's such a funny thing. And then starts bragging about his new job, and how much he is getting paid (lol I just wanted to say back to his face: 'Pfft I'm getting paid way more than that' but I didn't cause then I would be stooping to his level). Honestly I hate people who feel a need to show off about everything..

Anyways back to the point, I am only going to Hamilton for 6 months, so it's really not such a big deal, so please stop feeling sorry for me :) I am kinda excited actually, finally get to have my own place, and be independent and not have naggy adults around me telling me to do this and that.

Ok.. I had heaps of other things to blog about but I am running late now. My friend is here from Australia so we are going to High Tea at Stamford. And then I have work later at the bar TT

So will blog more later!
x

My First's Tag

Hello guys,

I thought I'd do another tag today, since they are actually alot of fun, and so much easier than normal blog posts cause I never have anything to blog about.. XD

So this is the 'My First's Tag', inspired from Youtube. I thought I would be a bit more detailed with my answers this time, since last time my answers were really short.

-What was your first tweet? 

Okay so for those people who know me well, they know I am a Twitter addict. I tweet ALL the time, and I have 13,136 tweets and counting, so it would be impossible for me to scroll all the way down to find my first tweet. But luckily, after a quick search on Google, there is actually a way to find your first tweet without scrolling down your page. So my first tweet was.. *drumroll..*
"I am sleeping at 2am today! An hr earlier than normal.. yus PROGRESS :D" 
hahaha night owl since December 2009 lol

-What was your first YouTube video? 

I think this question is for all the Youtube gurus, but anyways I've actually posted two videos on Youtube. My first video which I have deleted now cause it was too embarrassing was a video of me playing piano, for an online competition I entered haha, and the second video if anyone cares is a surprise video I made for my boyfriend for our one year anniversary ^^

-Who was the first person you subscribed to on YouTube? 

I can't remember who was the first person, but it may have been either Michelle Phan (the most famous Youtube makeup guru) or Jayesslee (the twins who sing awesome acoustic covers of songs)

-What was the first Facebook profile pic?

 My first Facebook dp was a camwhore photo taken with one of my best friends back in the day, in the bathroom in her house. Sadly, I am not really friends with her anymore due to various reasons.. ><

-Do you still talk to your first love? 

Nope.. I don't even know if he even remembers me anymore haha. My first love was this white guy in Intermediate. I was absolutely infatuated with him, cause he was cute, smart, and good at pretty much everything. He was like one of the most popular guys at school - lead in our school production, in every sports team etc. I met him when we were both in the table tennis team in Intermediate, and for awhile I thought maybe he liked me too. But he was a year above me, and then left for high school at Avondale College. Noone knows this but part of the reason why I chose to go to Avondale was cause I wanted to see him again LOL. My parents actually wanted to send me to a private school but I refused.

-What was your first alcoholic drink? 

This question is pretty funny cause most of my friends now think I am a hardout alcoholic. But to be honest, I didn't start drinking till maybe around 19? I used to be really against drinking, and at parties I would be super downbuzz and only drink water haha, but then on a trip to Melbourne with some friends, we went clubbing (which was also my first time), and they corrupted me lolol. My first drink was a Jaegerbomb! I was really noob and didn't even know you had to put the shot of Jaeger into the glass of Redbull haha

-What was your first job?

 My first job was working at my parents' ice-cream shop in Lynnmall. I didn't get paid at the time, cause my mum said she would pay for my Japan trip in high school, so I slaved away for almost 3 years without getting paid.. TT

-What was your first car? 

I learnt to drive as soon as I turned 15, and my parents gave me their old car - a white Toyota Corolla, which I gave to my cousin last year when my parents bought me a new car. I loved my old car to bits though, pimping it up with Hello Kitty haha here's a picture:

-Who was the first person to text you today? 

Eddy Liu, asking me to have dinner with him tonight.

-Who was the first person you thought of this morning? 

My boyfriend ^_^

-Who was your first grade teacher? 

err I don't remember who was my first primary school teacher.. (Simon help me! LOL)I think it was an Asian lady called Mrs March? I don't know.. lol

-Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? 

I guess it was when I came to New Zealand from China when I was 4? I don't remember anything since I was so young.

-Who was your first best friend & do you still talk? 

My first best friend was this Asian girl called Joanna in primary school. We weren't super close, but she was the person who I thought was the closest to me throughout primary school. It was funny cause I remember one time in class, the teacher asked who everyone's best friend was, and when it got to me and Joanna, we both didn't say anything. I think we both thought of each other as best friends, but then we didn't want to admit it in case the other person didn't think so hahah. Anyways I don't talk to her anymore, but I do have her on Facebook :)

-Where was your first sleep over? 

I don't really remember my first sleep over, but my mum was really strict so she wouldn't let me go to any in primary school, so I think my first sleepover was at my friend Meili's house in Intermediate, since my mum knew her dad so she let me go.

-What was the first thing you did this morning? 

Err I went to pee. LOL and then I took a shower, and made brunch.

-What was the first concert you ever went to? 

Mayday 五月天! They are an Asian group/band, and Amy is really obsessed with the lead singer, so I went with her when they came to New Zealand. She was so funny.. at the concert, she screamed "I love you Ashin, marry me!" LOL

-What was your first broken bone? 

I've never broken a bone, and I hope I never will. Cause my brother's broken his arm twice and it looked pretty scary..

-What was your first piercing? 

My ears and that's it.  I kinda want a second upper ear piercing though.. but I'm scared it'll hurt lol

-What was the first foreign country you've gone to? 

Well besides New Zealand and China, the first other country I went to was Japan on a school trip, like I mentioned earlier. I would love to go to the US in the future! Maybe next year if I am lucky :)

-What was the first movie you remember seeing? 

Does this question mean in a cinema? I think it was the Pokemon movie in primary school.. in the super shitty old cinema in New Lynn, that later got shut down cause it was so shitty lmao

-When was your first detention? 

I think I've only ever had one detention in high school.. and it was for something really trivial like I was late to class or something.. 

-Who was your first roommate?

I've never had a proper roommate.. I guess it would be either my brother or my cousin Heidi? lol Heidi used to snore really loudly and annoyed the shit out of me. (HAHA jokes don't kill me)

-What was the first sport you were involved in? 

Table tennis! My dad is a table tennis pro so he's taught me since I was little. I joined the school team in Intermediate, playing both singles and doubles.. but I think the best result I got was only third at Regionals? 

-What is the first thing you do when you get home? 

Take off my bra. LOL sorry if this is tmi but I really hate wearing bras.. lmao

-When was your first kiss? 

During a game of 'Spin the Bottle' in first year of high school. Ugh I hate that game. 

Damn, this tag was actually alot longer than I was expecting.

Hope you guys enjoyed reading it :)

x

Feeling a lil sentimental

So my friend posted this picture/comic strip on Wechat last night.. and it made me cry, and I felt like I really had to blog about it. I just feel like I can relate so much to this picture.

For those who don't understand Chinese, it's basically about how much parents love their children.
The grey cicles represent when the child isn't at home, and the pink circle represents when the child is at home.

So the reason why I can relate to this picture is because I don't see my parents that often anymore.
Either they are really busy working, or I'm not at home.
The only time I properly get to spend time with them is in the weekends, and even then, sometimes things will come up so I won't get to see them.

Growing up, my parents have always been workaholics.
I think I already mentioned this in a previous blog post, but my parents work 24/7, from 7 in the morning to sometimes midnight.
They've never had a proper holiday; even on public holidays they sometimes have to work.
I remember I used to resent them alot when I was younger because when all my friends were going on family vacations, I never got to go anywhere. Obviously I was really immature; my parents were working so hard to give me and my brother a better life, yet I was always making them feel guilty for not spending time with us.
I used to have a really bad relationship with my mum especially. Maybe all adolescents go through that rebellious stage? But I used to constantly rage and swear at her, run away from home.. I remember I even hit my mum once or twice. Lol I'm actually tearing up right now even thinking about that. In Shanghai families, the mum is the boss of the house and the dad is the weaker one, and I guess my family is a really traditional Shanghainese family? (But my mum isn't like those snobby Shanghai women! She's actually super nice and caring; she's just also really strict)

Anyways yeah that rebellious stage continued till around university, when I finally grew up and matured. I started telling my mum everything about my life.. and we became super close.
But I guess with my parents being workaholics, it taught me to be independent from a young age. And I kinda got used to it. I started working lots of part-time jobs and paying for most things myself, very rarely asking them for any financial support. Of course they always supported me whenever I needed it (like buying me a new car and new laptop etc, but most everyday items I paid for myself)

I guess the good thing about my parents letting me be independent is that I got to do whatever I wanted. I didn't have curfews, I could just stay at my boyfriend's place if I wanted to, I even went to Melbourne twice by myself. And now, I really thank them for not being over-controlling, and over-protective, like most Asian parents. It helped me mature and face the real world. It doesn't mean they loved me any less than other peoples' parents; but sometimes the harder you hold on, the more they pull away. Of course they still had high expectations of me; I had to get good grades, find a job etc, but when they saw I did those things, they let me be happy and do whatever I wanted in my spare time.

But despite how much I love my independence, sometimes it makes me feel guilty that I'm being a bad daughter for not spending a lot of time with them. Especially after reading that comic strip above, I feel like I should go home more often. My parents aren't getting any younger, and me moving to Hamilton next year means I'll get to spend even less time with them.

I feel really grateful to have such amazing parents. They've always been so supportive through everything; I honestly don't know what I would do without them. They are so inspirational and constantly teach me how to be a better person through their actions. My only wish now is to repay them and have the ability to give them a better life, so that they can stop working so hard and go travel the world together, like they've always wanted to.

<3

A boring day in the life of serawera

Actually don't have anything to blog about but I can't be bothered studying so here goes some rambling lol

Today was actually the first day in over two weeks that I didn't have work and could just stay at home the whole day. I was looking forward to sleeping in till late, having a nice BBQ dinner and then doing some study. And none of the above happened LOL.
well the BBQ was quite nice I suppose.. but I felt nauseous all day (dunno if it's from the pill that I just started going on.. or from lack of sleep).

So I finished work pretty late last night, came home and was drifting off to sleep when Jeannie drunk calls me telling me Cathy had her keys and she couldn't get into her apartment. I didn't wanna go out by myself so I made Brandon drive us to her place to get her.
When we got home, she was still super drunk haha it was so funny.. she just kept mumbling in Chinese; couldn't even understand a word she said. And she refused to sleep so I started playing Tetris while she continued to mumble to herself.. lolol drunk people are so funny..
Anyways after an hour or so, she finally fell asleep but I couldn't sleep for some reason as I started to feel super nauseous. It was already around 7am by this time, and she woke up around 3 hours later, and we realized that her keys were in her jacket pocket the whole time..
LOL lesson learnt = never believe anything a drunk person says hahaha

So we dropped her home, came back and slept for around 3 hours before bf's mum made us get up to help out with the BBQ. They were having a dinner party at home to celebrate bf's dad's birthday.
So I made a salad (which everyone said was super nice muhaha.. dammit I should've taken a photo) and helped cook on the BBQ.
And then we were just sitting at the table eating, when one of their family friends started talking in Shanghainese and I was like: 'Oh you guys are Shanghainese too' and they were like 'yeah~!' And then somehow the conversation got to them asking about my parents and I jokingly said: 'Oh you guys might even know my parents since the Shanghai circle is so small' And they asked what my parents' names were and I told them my mum is a twin. And they were like: 'Oh! We know of your family! You guys are famous in the Shanghai circle.' And I was like lol wtf...
It was a bit creepy cause they knew everything about us.. like the businesses my family have been doing and what school my brother goes to and shit.. I guess the world is super small.
So don't do anything bad! Cause everyone will know about it haha

Anyways, the BBQ itself was quite nice. We had heaps of food - sausages, my famous mushroom balls with wasabi + yumyum sauce, kumara, steak, lamb, salad, vegetables and heaps more.
I wish I took a photo now :(
Haven't had a BBQ in so long! Made me happy cause it means summer is finally coming!
And then we also had two cakes.. here is one of them.

I like taking photos of cakes cause they always look so pretty
I didn't have much food though cause I was still feeling nauseous..
maybe it's a good thing that I started the pill so it can help me lose weight lolol
But I shall see how I feel in the next few days

After dinner, me and the bf made some Hong Kong milk tea for everyone.
It was a practice round for the HKESA Food Festival next week where we are all bringing some foods/drinks to sell at uni (kinda like a night market thing)
Surprisingly, it's really easy to make milk tea. All you need is some strong black tea and condensed milk. And our first try was a success! Everyone said it even tastes better than the ones you buy heheh but they were probably just being nice :p

And then for the rest of the night, I caught up on Grey's Anatomy, Fei Cheng Wu Rao, and also watched the ATP Shanghai Finals where my hubby Del Potro was versing Djokovic!
lol me and Esther spammed Snapchat while watching cause it was so damn intense, but unfortunately, my hubby lost in the final round tie break :(
Oh well.. at least he got into the ATP World Tour Finals!! SO EXCITED.

So that was my day in a nutshell.
LOL I really don't know why I blogged about this cause it wasn't a very exciting day, but Carmen told me to blog so there you go.
This post is dedicated to you Carmie :3 I miss you!
Now you know how boring my life is hahaha

Probably should sleep now. Got our final auditing group presentation tomorrow!
Hope we get full marks again like last time ^^
Goodnight world.

Oh here are some photos of dinner from the other night with Eddy and Jeannie at The Grill by Sean Oconnolly. Haven't had fine dining in a while, and this place was super yum! (But also expensive TT)

Monthiversary

Today was me and the boyfriend's 27 months so we went to a nice Thai place called Jungle Flavour Thai Restaurant for dinner.

We haven't been on a proper dinner date in awhile since we're trying to save up for our holiday, and we haven't had Thai food in like a year, so we thought we would go and celebrate our monthiversary for a change.

Haven't taken food pics in so long! haha I remember I used to take food pics and post them on Instagram all the time.. lol the lighting was kinda shitty at the restaurant tonight so these photos don't look that nice.. or maybe my food photo skills have deteriorated haha

I got the Penang curry with chicken and bf got the Red Curry with duck, and we shared a Tom Yum soup which is one of our favourite soups (the combination of hot and sour tastes so good! And it's also got coriander in it which I love. If you guys haven't tried it, you definitely should :)

The portions were actually huge! We were both soo full afterwards
Some of the Thai places we've been to in the past have had really shallow plates with small portions.. but this place was definitely good value for money. And it tasted quite good too. Not the best Thai place in Auckland but not bad at all. My fave Thai place used to be Khao near Chancery in city.. but then it closed down :(

Can't believe it's been 27 months already.. I'm actually starting to lose count haha,
Time goes way too fast

趁早

So I had a pretty lousy day today..

• Overslept and missed my tutorial
• Ran out of milk 
• Went to fuel up and the petrol station was closed
• Got to uni and couldn't find parking (I usually park outside OGGB)
• Went to Princes St and saw a parking warden so I had to pay till 6pm
• Got to work and the elevator was broken
• Tried to study but barely got anything done
• Stayed late in my office to do more work but then my laptop ran out of battery

I guess it wasn't the most awful day ever or anything, but it just left me feeling tired & restless.

But then I came home to a cute package from Fonterra, had some dinner and made myself a big cup of green tea, and now I'm feeling better. I shall try and get some study done now; got 2 assignments due on Thursday and I haven't started on either.. sigh all-nighters here I come again :(

But I'm super looking forward to watching the finale of The Voice China later!

Goo mushroom head! I hope he wins.. his voice is so nice I could listen to it all day long.

ok gonna go study now :)

105 is the number that comes to my head

When I think of all the years I wanna be with you..

omgsh how cute is this song?!

I first heard bits of it in bubzbeauty's wedding video (which is the most sweetest video ever!!)

But I finally listened to the full song today and the MV is super cute!

I didn't even know Jason Derulo and Jordin Sparks were together lol

And then everyone in the comments were saying that he actually proposed and I got all excited and went online to look for news, but sadly he said they're not engaged yet :(

Ahh these videos make me wanna get married too haha,

but that's probably a looong time away since I don't wanna get married until late twenties

But gosh.. even thinking about planning my own wedding gets me all happy and excited hehe~

50 Random Facts About Me

So I wanted to do one of these tags for ages. I know I'm not that special and interesting, and nobody probably cares but here goes anyways xD

I actually wrote this out on my phone this morning when I was in bed too lazy to get up.. but then I accidentally deleted it, and it was too late to use the shake-to-undo function on iPhone.. (I totally did not know that function even existed btw) so let's see how many I can remember

1. I'm really bad at saving
2. I hate red bean, mussels and mushrooms
3. I used to be obsessed about Hello Kitty
4. I almost drowned when I was in primary school, but my friend saved me
5. Melbourne was my favourite city even before it became all cool and hipster and everyone wanted to move there
6. I'm terrified of bugs
7. I've been addicted to Tetris Battle on Facebook for a long time and I play almost everyday.
8. I love watching tennis - my favourite tennis player is Juan Martin Del Potro
9. I used to be really good at piano
10. My favourite colour is still pink
11. I once flashed a guy in Intermediate and now he is one of my best friends
12. My mum is a twin
13. I used to be an online radio DJ
14. I secretly want to be an events manager/wedding planner but I'm too scared to tell my parents.
15. I don't like pizza or milk tea.
16. I was born in Shanghai but came to NZ when I was 4
17. I have never been skinny my entire life :(
18. I saved my brother's life when he was around 3
19. I'm really bad at geography and history
20. Jay Chou will forever be my one and only love
21. My parents used to own an ice-cream shop
22. I've worked almost 10 part-time jobs since starting university
23. I'm a social media whore
24. I've been with my first and only boyfriend for almost 2 and a half years
25. I want to get married in Santorini
26. My dad used to be a surgeon.
27. People are always trying to kill me in my dreams
28. I'm also terrified of heights
29. I will admit I am an alcoholic
30. But I have never smoked before
31. I once broke a guy's finger.. but he deserved it hahah (yeah don't mess with me :p)
32. I started driving when I was 15, and got my restricted and full license in my first try
33. My favourite movie is The Parent Trap
34. I used to hate makeup but now I love it
35. Visiting every Disneyland in the world is on my bucket list
36. I really want a puppy - my first choice would be a Pomeranian
37. I always sneeze 5 times in a row
38. My favourite cocktail is Sex on the Beach or anything with lychee liquer in it
39. I love Vietnamese food - especially pho
40. I got double eyelid surgery at the beginning of this year
41. I matchmade my cousin and her boyfriend and they have been together for over 2 years now
42. I want to be really rich and travel the world
43. Sadly, I am becoming more and more materialistic
44. Breaking Bad is my favourite TV show of all time
45. I like watching singing talent shows, such as X Factor, The Voice etc
46. I used to be mocked about my big forehead so now I always cover it up with a fringe
47. I get car sick easily
48. I have always wanted to be a flower girl at someone's wedding
49. I used to have 4 best girlfriends in high school and we called ourselves the Ping Pongz
50. I guess I have a pretty good memory

I now tag all of my blogger friends! :)

Caboodle.

So I should be studying right now.. but instead I opened up blogspot for some reason..
lol I actually haven't studied in almost 5 weeks (2 weeks in the mid-sem break and now it's already week 3 after the break..)
I think I just lost all motivation in doing well this semester after failing my Comlaw test..
buuut I know I can't fail, or else I'm so screwed so hopefully that fear of failing will kick me to my desk soon.
It's just so hard to get back into studying.. feels like I took a super long holiday.
lol I totally blame Breaking Bad. I finished 5 seasons in less than 3 weeks haha, but damn that show was unbelievably awesome. Anyone who hasn't watched it yet is missing out on the best show ever created..

Speaking of holidays, me and Brandon booked our end of year tickets today!
We will be going to Singapore, Taiwan, Korea & Japan from 24th Dec - 15th Jan!
Soo excited!! Gonna start researching up places to go in each city. Originally we were gonna go Singapore, Taiwan and Thailand but then bf wasn't that keen on going Thailand and we both really wanted to go to Disneyland (yes I know we are childish okay) but it's actually on our bucket list to visit every Disneyland in the world together hehe, so then we changed Thailand to Japan.
But then when we were looking for flights we realized it was only an extra $300 to go to Korea too, so we thought might as well! and then voila.. Korea came into the picture too XD
lol I felt really bad for the travel agency lady that we booked from. We kept changing our minds about destinations and dates and times.. she had to change our itinerary like almost 10 times haha, but she was super nice. And I'm glad we're going via Singapore Air instead of shitty Jetstar or Air Asia..
Really need to start saving up now.. still need to book accommodation too!
I'm working everyday this week and next week until next Sunday TT
Super excited for our holiday though.. especially Taiwan since everyone's gonna be there.
But sigh.. when we come back, I'll be starting work in 2 weeks in Hamilton.. but I shall not think about that for now :)

ok I was gonna talk about something else but now I forgot..
It must not have been very interesting..
LOL sigh why am I so bad at blogging.. it just feels like I'm talking to myself.
I need to expand my vocabulary.. hmm from now on, I will learn a new word everyday.

Today's new word will be: Caboodle
Caboodle: The lot, collection or crowd. (wordsmith.org)

So how do I put that into a sentence..
At work, we have a caboodle of alcohol??

lol I just searched urbandictionary and apparantly caboodle means ass, anus or butt.
LOL Sarah has a nice caboodle.
hahaha that sounds so funny.. lol why am I so good at choosing new words..

So do you have a nice caboodle? ;)

Fuck you

honestly I am so mad right now I just want to type this entire post in capital letters.

My comlaw test that I thought I 'aced' came back and I fucking failed.

Yes that's right. Cause I'm a dumb retard.

WHY AM I SUCH A FUCKING RETARD?!?!

omg I studied so much for this test.. like soo much.

Staying up late every night to study for weeks

And then I end up writing on the wrong fucking topic.

Fuck you comlaw, you're a retard too

Ugh.. can't believe this is happening to me

Haven't failed in so long.

And in my last fucking semester; the only one I have to freaking pass

AND I GOT ALMOST FULL MARKS FOR THE LAND QUESTION.

And then 0 marks for the second question.

LOL I ALMOST WANNA LAUGH AT THIS SITUATION.

Who designs such a test anyways.. 

Like I was thinking to myself before the test, omg what if I just get one question completely wrong.. then I'm so gg'ed. But then I was like, nah that's not gonna happen

AND THEN IT DID.

Honestly this is karma.

I deserve it.. for being such a shitty person.

Ignoring the signs

you know that feeling when everything is telling you not to do something but you can't help but do it anyways

it's like at first you trip over your own feet.. and then you trip over a pebble.. and then you get hit by a brick.. and then when you ignore all those things, finally a brick wall falls on top of you

I know the universe is sending me all these signals telling me to stop.. but I just can't help myself..

Be free

Last night, I met a very interesting guy at work.
He was a European man in his forties, and he told me he was a music manager/former accountant/studies Chinese medicine.
haha I still don't know if he is any of those things, and I'll probably never find out since I don't think I'll ever see him again.
But he was rather intriguing and left a deep impact on me.

Last night, the Annual Global Music Summit was held at my workplace - Galatos, and we had 10 bands perform on two of our floors. I had worked at the event last year, and it had been pretty packed so I was expecting a big turnout again. But maybe because it was raining, there were only around a hundred or so people that came.

Anyways, halfway into the event, this guy comes up to the bar and tells us that it's his birthday so he wants to spoil himself. He ponders for awhile and then orders a double shot Bacardi & Coke. I didn't serve him the first time as I was busy drying glasses, but when I heard it was his birthday, I wished him happy birthday. He said thank you, and that was the end of that.

Half an hour later, my co-worker went on her break so I was by myself at the bar, and he comes again and orders another double shot Bacardi & Coke. As I made his drink, he started telling me about his life stories. At first I thought he was drunk, because he kept repeating the same things; such as it was his birthday, he was a music manager who had just discovered some amazing talent in a young girl and was going to help her launch her career, and that he has an amazing Maori chef who cooks the best food in the world. Of course being the nice bartender I am lol, I listened to all his stories and politely nodded and smiled. Having worked as a bartender for so long, I had gotten used to all the drunk people who come and go.

After that, he came back a third and fourth and fifth time, each time ordering the same drink and repeating the same stories. But the sixth time he came, he asked me where I was from. I told him, and then he started telling me how he studies Chinese medicine and majors in acupuncture, and how he's the only white guy in his class but he's top of the class. Our conversation then went something like this:
Him: "So what do you do?"
Me: "I'm in my final year of uni, I study accounting."
Him: "Oh I used to be an accountant at Price Waterhouse Coopers."
Me: "Oh really.. wow you seem to have done everything."
Him: "Yeah.. alot of people say I'm weird. I've been married twice, once to an Arab girl."
Me: "Oh really.. that's cool."
Him: "So is accounting something you really want to do?"
Me: "Well my parents want me to do it I guess.."
Him: "But what about you? Is that what you really want to do? C'mon tell me what you're truly passionate about."
Me: "Well.. I want to do event management, or maybe have my own business and be a wedding planner or something."
Him: "Then do it.. follow your dreams. I can see into your soul; your soul is locked up inside."
And when he said that, I was suddenly really taken aback. Maybe because nobody has ever said anything like that to me before; especially not a stranger. He then asked me if I had a pen and paper, so I gave him a post-it-note, and then he said to me: "I'm going to draw you a picture."
And this is what he drew:

He said to me: "Follow your dreams. Don't listen to what your parents say; do what you really want to do. I want you to pinky-swear me that in three years time, you won't be doing accounting, but doing what you truly want to do. I'm going to give you my contact details, and in three years time, I'm going to check up on you."

And then he made me 'pinky-swear' him.
Our conversation was alot longer than that, as I told him how I already got a job for next year, and how Asian parents are really strict, but the point is.. he made me realize that somewhere along the way, I had forgotten the importance of chasing your dreams, and following your heart.
When I was a kid, my dream was to become a doctor.
Not because my parents wanted me to, not because my dad was a doctor, not because of the money or prestige (I was like 10 years old), but only because I wanted to help people; I wanted to make a difference in the world. And that dream of mine continued all the way till university, and then I don't really know what happened. I guess I grew up, I stopped being naive, I started understanding the importance of money, and I started to believe that our parents are always right.
And so I listened to them and chose accounting.
Don't get me wrong, I still and always will believe that our parents will always have our best interests at heart, so I will never blame them for anything. Even though I really regret doing accounting now, I don't blame them at all. It was my own choice, and I know they just wanted me to have a stable and secure career.

But yeah.. I just really feel like I've lost all the passion and purpose that I used to have. (lol that sounds rather ominous.. and almost suicidal.. I suck at writing okay leave me alone TT)
But what I'm trying to say is that I don't want to be sitting infront of a computer all day, everyday for the rest of my life. I want to be doing something that I love, something that I enjoy, something that gives me a reason to get up in the morning and look forward to the day.

So thank you Mr-I-didn't-even-get-your-name.
I can't promise that I will definitely have achieved that in three years time, but I will try.
I won't give in to the harsh realities of life.

Eyelid surgery update

lol so I was looking at my dashboard, and I noticed that my eyelid surgery post a few months back actually got over 800 views.. haha wow didn't know people actually read my blog..

And also, I was on soompi last night and everyone was doing their monthly update photos/blogs so I thought I would do one too.

It's been almost 7 months since my surgery.. actually I think tomorrow marks exactly seven months.. lol time goes so fast; seriously where did the last few months go??

So how should I start this.. maybe with some photos?
I feel quite brave posting these photos, as I look hideous in the first few haha.. hope I don't give you guys nightmares LOL
Anyways, here is me 2 days after surgery:
(I didn't take a photo immediately after surgery as my eyes had to be bandaged for 24 hours)

And here is me a week after surgery. I think this was taken just before I got my stitches out

After I got my stitches out, the swelling actually came down alot.

These were taken around 2 months after surgery.. with light makeup:

And here is me now! with no makeup:

(isn't the panda cute lol.. I put it there cause I look gay in that photo haha 

and couldn't be bothered taking anymore xD)

And with makeup.. weeee

the power of makeup LOL

Soo yeah.. as you can see, the fold has actually come down alot.. although it is still a little higher than I would've liked. It kinda looks a bit unnatural without makeup, but other than that I'm quite happy with the results. Both eyes look pretty even, and there is very little scarring. I used Bio-oil for awhile, but then I kept forgetting, and eventually I just stopped using it completely lol
I don't think the fold will change anymore since it has been seven months already.. but some people say it doesn't completely settle until a year after surgery, so hopefully my fold will still come down a tiny bit.

Feel free to ask any questions ;D

ladadidadi~

dancing with miley~

this song has been stuck in my head for the past few weeks.. and after the VMA's it's become even more catchy lol
Miley Cyrus has turned so weird.. I've actually always really liked her; her music and even her movies. I always thought she was a super talented girl, with her own style, and doesn't deserve all the hate that she gets. But now she's just turned soo weird. Like wtf is up with her VMA performance.. damn gurl you're scaring errbody.
I think she's trying too hard to be unique, to be different, and even to be sexy lol
Like everyone always thinks Lady Gaga is the weirdest artist ever right? But after Miley's VMA performance, it made Lady Gaga's performance look so classy and artistic.
But hey it's her life like she says, she can do whatever the fuck she wants.
One of the Youtube comments I read said 'at the end of the day, she goes home and rolls around in all her cash, and doesn't give a shit about what anyone says'
haha and that's so true.. haters gon hate.. and now everyone's talking about her, like c'mon I'm even blogging about her lol

well I'm actually just blogging to procrastinate.
Last week of uni before the mid-semester break, and I'm cramming for my two tests
sigh.. this semester sucks ass
Ended up having to do another paper cause stupid uni said I haven't met the Stage 3 requirements to graduate so then I chose to do Finance.. thinking it will be more useful in life.
Well that was a stupid decision.. pretty sure I failed my test last week rofl
I'M SO SCARED OF FAILING!! cause then what's gonna happen to my job next year TT
And freaking Comlaw 301.. Tax.. wow worst paper I've ever done.
And because it's an open book exam, they literally give us like a million cases to read.. like seriously I'd rather not have open book exam.
omg I'm ranting again. I told myself that this blogpost was not going to be a rage post..

lol I think my life has sunk to a new low.. I started watching Tetris videos on Youtube.
Cause I wanna learn how to do 3 line and 4 line combo.
Played my friend the other day on Facebook, and got owned cause he was doing 3 lines.
I swear if I put half the effort that I put into Tetris into my studies, I'd probs get straight A's lol

Anyways, looking forward to the mid-semester break!
All my tests and most of my assignments were due before the break so I gots no study to do in the break yay
excited for Deja Vu, Ball, and lots of partying and drinking!

can I just yolo my last semester :(

Amy left to go back to Taiwan last week :(
I cried lots that night haha.. I'm such a crybaby now.. gah

Rage post

Sigh.. so annoyed and angry and sad right now.. need to let some of this frustration out

I think I have really low tolerance for people now.
Just so many people annoy me; people who don't fucking think before they speak, selfish and inconsiderate retards, arrogant pricks, and just people who are freaking dumb.
Honestly, I think it's just me. I think it's my problem.
I used to be so nice and tolerant of anyone and everyone. I used to befriend all the people that everyone hated, and I used to tell off anyone who would be mean to others, even to the point where those people would think I'm annoying.
People said I was one of the nicest girls ever.
But now.. I feel like I'm constantly raging.. constantly getting annoyed at the dumb shit that people say.
Sigh.. maybe I finally grew up, and realized that not everyone is worth being nice to.
Maybe those people are disliked for a reason.
I dunno.. my mum always told me that being nice to people is one of the most basic traits that anyone should have. She always said: be nice to others, and others will be nice to you.
Well that's fucking bullshit.
People are selfish, and they will always look out for themselves first.
I know some people reading this now are gonna be like "No that's not true, I care about other people, I believe in altruism etc etc" but c'mon, do you really? Do you truly care?
Sigh I feel like such a bitter hateful person typing all this out but I can't help it, lately I just feel like only your close friends are worth caring about, and everyone else is simply not worth it.

Little things

Today, an elderly lady came up to me while I was washing my hands in the bathroom and said: "You are so pretty!"

It was so cute and I just felt this instant heartwarming feeling inside me.

It's the little things in life that makes us happy :)

Life

Just had a super long d&m with my mum..
At first it was just me asking her for a Vodafone top-up card lol (cause she always has an endless supply of them for our business XD) but then we started talking about life and the future
She told me that she and my dad are planning to expand our business.
At first, I didn't really think it was a good idea since they're getting quite old now, and expansion just means more work for them.. but then she told me more about it, and I kinda came around to the idea.
She said that once the business expands, then they can hire a manager to deal with all the employees, and she and my dad can just step back and take on a more higher management role.
So that they don't actually have to work so much everyday.
And then I got all excited and said that maybe if our business does really well, then in a few years they can just retire and I can take over and run it, since I do accounting anyways. Cause it'd be such a shame to just sell it, after they put so much hard work into it.
But yeah.. that's thinking too far for now lol

My parents honestly inspire me so much; they are my biggest role models.
They work so hard everyday.
And they're 50 years old now, and still working.
I keep telling my mum to just retire already and enjoy life, but she keeps saying she won't retire until my brother starts university or gets a job.
Since we came to NZ almost 20 years ago, my parents have never ever taken a proper break or holiday longer than a week. Well my dad used to go China every year for business, and each time it would be a for a few months, so at least he got a break. My mum never did.
I always tell people that my mum is a superwoman. She works 5 days a week, sometimes as early as 7am to as late as 11pm, and she still takes care of all the housework.
I think my mum is actually a workaholic; like she even told me herself that if one day she retires, she's not gonna know what to do with her life anymore lol
But still.. I still wanna earn enough in the future so that they can just stop working, and go travel the world or something lol

My mum also told me something that made me so sad sigh..
My first piano teacher that I stayed with for maybe 6 or 7 years, just came back to New Zealand.
She used to live here, and she was married to a Japanese guy.
But then I think that guy used to hit her, and so they got divorced.
Then she met another guy who was 10 years older than her; he was a businessman and they went back to China, got married and had a kid. I remember a few years ago, my mum telling me she was pregnant and I was so happy for her.
But just last year, her husband died from a heart attack, so now she's a solo mum, and her child is only 4 years old. And apparantly her personality has completely changed; like she doesn't talk much anymore ><
Life is just so unfair sometimes.. I don't understand why bad things always happen to good people.
She was one of the nicest people I have ever met.
I still remember when I first started playing piano, she gave me so much encouragement and support during all those years of piano competitions, recitals, and most importantly my piano exams. Like lots of teachers nowadays are just focused on business and earning money lol, not saying all of them are! But like my second teacher who opened a school, she was always late to our lessons, or on the phone during our lesson, or just charging fees for everything.
But my first piano teacher was just a genuinely nice person.
lol I think I disappointed her since I failed my diploma exam, and then I pretty much quit piano zz.. kinda regret giving it up now

Anyways on a brighter note, I have finished exams!!
lol dunno what to do now haha, trying to look for another job cause I'm so broke.. lol I feel like I'm always complaining about being broke XD
But lots to look forward to this inter-semester break!
So many birthday parties coming up, including my own (which I need to start planning), and I'm going on the HKESA camp which should be fun
And yes I need to start fixing my sleeping pattern from now on.. don't think my body can take this unhealthy lifestyle anymore ><

Blog looks so boring so here's some photos of my new baby Air hehe

So in love! Best laptop ever

hehe got a pink keyboard cover!

Midnight thoughts

so I randomly woke up at 4am and can't get back to sleep.. so annoyed cause I actually slept early tonight in an attempt to fix my retarded sleeping pattern

sigh.. 

anyways it's exam period right now so I'm super stressed.

even though I'm only doing 2 papers, I managed to still leave everything till the last minute.. yes bad Sarah never learns her lesson :(

also quite depressed lately.. well not depressed but just sad in general cause it feels like it's breakup season.. everyone around me is breaking up and it makes me sad..

even couples who have been together for years are ending things for good and so it makes me doubt my own relationship, like what makes me so confident that my relationship will last..

I know it's stupid but I can't help thinking that.

I used to be so naive and believe that love conquers everything; as long as you love each other then you can make it through anything and nothing else matters (lol I think I watched too many idol dramas when I was younger) but now I realized that that is absolute bullshit

I think I have actually been influenced alot by Brandon lol dunno if that's a good thing or not :p

After being with him, I feel like I've become alot more cynical and pessimistic about the world but I guess I have also matured.

zzz I just miss believing in true love and fate and happily ever after 

maybe that's why I'm so obsessed with Fei Cheng Wu Rao lately 

like even though I know it's semi-rigged, it kinda makes me believe in fate again; that it's possible to find that person who truly completes you 

nothing lasts forever, but you wish some things could right?