Thursday, January 15, 2015

2015

Wow just realized I pretty much left this blog to die haha, only came on here cause I've been getting notifications for people leaving comments/questions on my eyelid surgery post! 
And reading my last blog post on here, so much has changed! I'm much happier now :)
Anyways I started blogging on tumblr now so if anyone still cares you can follow me on there:
serawera.tumblr.com

Happy new year! 


Tuesday, February 25, 2014

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

So I haven't blogged in a long time.
I've been meaning to write about my awesome Asia trip at the end of last year, but just been so busy this year I haven't found the time.
Lately though some shit has been going on in my life and I guess I just need an outlet to rant about it.
Those of you who have me on Twitter have unfortunately witnessed my series of angry and emo tweets for the past few weeks, and a few people seem to be really curious about what's going on (since you know Twitter is all cryptic and shit) so here goes lol

So I moved to Hamilton at the end of January.
I knew it wasn't gonna be easy; moving away from my family, friends, boyfriend to a tiny little rural town (in my opinion lol) where its central city is about a quarter of the size of Auckland's.
But hey, I was somewhat mentally prepared, and at least I had my adorable puppy to keep me company. The first week was really hard; I remember crying at night cause I just felt so lonely. I had just gotten my puppy as well, and she wasn't trained at all, so she was constantly biting and yapping, and pooping everywhere. And work was a completely new and strange environment for me; there was no one my age since the other grads hadn't started yet, and everyone in my team was my parent's age. And I had no idea what I was doing; everyday felt like a massively steep learning curve. I had nobody to have lunch with, and being a person who has been used to sleeping at 4 and waking at noon for the past 5 years, it was hard for me to settle into the 9-5 daily routine.
But things got better. I was learning new things everyday, I had a great manager who really wanted to help me grow and develop; taking me to all her weekly and monthly meetings and conferences. And the other grads started, and I found people to have lunch with! So work is actually the only good thing in my life right now. I surprisingly really enjoy what I'm doing, since my role for this rotation isn't very accounting based; it's more so to do with performance analysis and reporting. And I've been given new projects every week to work on, so I'm never doing the same thing everyday.

So what has been making me so miserable?
Well apart from living in shitty Hamilton, and having to drive back to Auckland every weekend (which is a pain), I had new flatmates move in 2 weeks ago. Initially, it was only me and this other girl who works at Fonterra too. She's really awesome, and it was really nice living with her, because we just respected each other, and she wasn't overly ocd about being clean, but also wasn't a lazy and messy person. But 2 weeks ago, these 2 18-year old Chinese girls moved in. I didn't like one of the girls as soon as I met her. She was loud and rude, and lazy and messy. She talked (or more like screamed) on the phone everyday for hours, and she was really fat (lol) and every time I saw her, she would constantly be eating and leaving her food scraps everywhere in the dining room and kitchen. And every time she took a shower, the bathroom floor would be soaking wet, and dirty. But that was ok. I am quite a tolerant person, and even though 4 girls sharing a bathroom sucked big time it was still ok. It was still bearable.
But last week, the girls left a huge rubbish bag (well actually MY rubbish bag that I bought but hadn't used yet since I was in Auckland for work that week), open with rotten meat, or whatever shit that it was. I had already told them last week that rubbish day was on Wednesday, but they didn't take it out, so at first, it attracted a huge amount of flies. Like I have never seen that many flies in my life. I talked to my other flatmate about it, but before we could even do anything, on Friday morning, we got greeted by about a hundred maggots down our corridor in the morning. I actually have a photo of it on my phone, but it's probably too disgusting to post on here; I don't want to contaminate my lovely blog lol. Anyways, that morning the two other girls told us that they had packed all their things and were moving out, and me and the other Sarah were late for work, so we couldn't do anything about it. When we got to work, I called the landlord lady to tell her what was going on, but the two other girls had called her already. And what fucking pissed me off was that they told her that MY DOG had brought in the maggots. Like what the fuck; at least own up to your own fucking mess. So I told the landlord lady what had really happened, and so she said she was gonna call them back to tell them to clean it up, and then just move out.
An hour later, Sarah called me and told me that the fat girl had texted her saying that the landlord lady told her not to do anything, and that WE had to clean everything up. And by then, I was so fucking angry cause I knew they were lying. I called the landlord back, and sure enough, she had said no such thing, but by then it was too late cause they had already moved out.
So me & Sarah had to go home and clean up THEIR fucking mess; we went and bought heaps of bug bombs, and spray, and then vacuumed the whole house. It was so disgusting cause the rubbish bin was maggot infested, so we had to clean that too.
Honestly, I can't believe people like that even exist in this world. It makes me so angry. But at least they moved out right.. I thought it would be the end of this horrible week.

I came home on Sunday night, feeling happy and peaceful, and ready for a new week.
And just when I thought my bad luck streak was over, yesterday night, my puppy got really sick and started vomiting. At first I thought she probably ate something bad, but then she kept vomiting, and her stomach was making these gurgling noises, so I got worried and took her to the emergency after-hours vet clinic. The vet was concerned that she might have Parvo, which is a life-threatening illness that affects dogs, so she did the test for it, but it came back negative. However, she said that sometimes even when the tests are negative, it could still be brewing underneath. And then she did an x-ray to see if she had eaten something and it got stuck, but the x-rays came back all fine. But she said she could see that the stomach lining was really thick, which may be an indication of early signs of Parvo. At this point, she said that there was a 50% chance Bubbi had Parvo, and when I heard this, I thought I was gonna die. I really felt like I couldn't cope with all of this anymore.
The consultation fee was $200 alone, and the total bill came to $600 which included the x-rays, Parvo test, and some meds which the vet gave her to calm the stomach, and stop the vomiting, as well as some electrolytes to keep her hydrated. What pissed me off was that my one-month free pet insurance had just expired, and I was in the process of getting it renewed at my vet. So yeap.. the $600 unfortunately wouldn't be covered lol.. surprise surprise.
Luckily though, Bubbi is alot better now. She's stopped vomiting, and doesn't have any signs of diaarhoea or lethargy or lack of appetite (which are symptoms of Parvo) so hopefully she will be okay. That's the most important thing I guess.

But I'm scared now. Scared that bad things will keep happening to me.
I know I only listed a few things in this blog. But actually there are some other big things that are going on in my life that I would rather not discuss publicly here.
I just feel like life is really testing me this year. I keep telling myself that what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. If I can make it through these 6 months, then I will be a stronger and better person! But it's hard cause it feels like I'm going through all of this alone; I don't have my parents or boyfriend or anyone to lean on. Like the whole maggots thing probably won't be a big deal to some people; but I'm absolutely terrified of bugs. If I even see a moth in my room, I will scream and run out of my room, and usually get my dad or bf to kill it before I can even go back inside. So when I saw all those maggots, I cried and cried and cried, but then I realized nobody's here to take care of this, I have to be a big girl and do it myself.

Hopefully things will get better soon.
One thing I've learnt so far is that you really have to appreciate the small things in life. I know it sounds stupid and cliche, but I miss Auckland so much. I used to hate on Auckland all the time, and say that it's so shit, and can't compare to Melbourne etc, but now that I'm stuck here, my weekends in Auckland feel so precious every week. Home-cooked food, my nice warm shower at home, time with the bf, having lunch/dinner with my friends all feel so precious. And I really really miss uni; kinda feels like those good years of my life are gone forever.
Haha okay this is getting too depressing. I need to stay positive!
Hopefully next time I blog, it will be a happy one! :)

Friday, December 20, 2013

My unlucky day

I am such a fucking idiot.
and I have the worst luck in the world.

I somehow managed to trip over and the bottom of my left foot somehow tore open the big toe nail on my right foot.
LOL.. yeap.
god that pain was excruciating.. I cried and cried and cried and just sat there with my bleeding toe for half an hour with tears streaming down my face.. until the bf finally convinced me to get up and go to the doctors.
As predicted, the doctor couldn't really do anything about it. Part of the toe nail was still attached so he recommended just bandaging it up and waiting for the new nail to grow out. The other option was to inject some anesthetic into my foot and just tearing the whole nail off.. well obviously I took the first option LOL.

So now; 4 days before my trip, I am partly crippled, and can't even walk properly. And then after my doctor told me I probably can't go shoe shopping or hot springs, I cried some more lol
I can't even wear shoes on my right foot, apart from jandals so I have no idea what I am going to do in freezing cold Seoul & Tokyo. Sigh..

But I am over it now. And no matter how much I cry it's not gonna turn back time or magically heal my toe. Shit happens; just gotta deal with it right. And I guess it could've been worse. Bf told me last time when he went overseas, this girl stood on his friend's toe with her high heels, and then his toe turned black and completely died o.o

So yeah.. gonna try be optimistic.
Maybe it won't hurt anymore after a few days or I'll get used to it.
Not gonna let anything ruin my trip!! 

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Blogging in the morning!

Wow I don't think I have ever blogged in the morning before..
But the bf is still asleep and I am super bored.
I have such a healthy lifestyle now lol.. wake up at 9-10 automatically without an alarm, and then go to sleep at night at around 12 (except when I work late nights at the bar, but then the next morning I still wake up early ><)
And it's been like this for the past few weeks now.. I feel quite proud of myself.
This is coming from a person who used to sleep at 6am and wake up at 3pm LOL
I guess this is good practice for when I start full-time work.

Umm.. so I don't really know what to blog about.
Last night, I had work at the bar for an EP release party, and they had 3 bands playing.
And quoting my manager cause I don't wanna be stink, she said: "That was absolute torture" LOL
Me and Amanda were planning on going drinking after, but then the music they played was so bad, it totally killed our buzz and almost put me to sleep.
lol I hope they never stumble upon my blog.. cause they were really nice people :p
Next Sat is my last ever shift! Nooooo :(
And apparantly it's a heavy metal event.. oh boy. I think I am going to make an exception, and make cocktails for myself and drink them all night bahaha.. hey, gotta make the most out of my last shift XD

So next week is my last week in Auckland before I go overseas.
Working Mon, Tues, Wed & Fri and then bar on Sat as usual zz.. I swear these 'holidays' have gone by so fast. It's been almost a month since I finished exams!
But it's okay cause I am soo excited about our trip. I will def blog & post heaps of photos this time! Fully regret that I didn't last year, cause I ended up losing all my photos since I lost my phone TT
And I am more excited this year, cause last year I looked like shit after my surgery so I was semi-depressed every time we were taking photos. AND I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT GETTING A NEW CAMERA!
yaaay, I haven't had a camera since high school; I've always just taken photos on my phone.
But I have decided that it's time for me to get one, cause iPhone camera quality is still shitty (maybe it's cause I still have the 4S so it's extra shit)
I'm still deciding between the different Casio 'selfie' cameras. Yeah I'm gonna be vain and get a selfie camera muhaha, I can't help it. I am too in love with the 'wide shot' function. But omg the one I really want - TR15 costs $1000 T_______T  and I am planning on getting iPhone 5S next year so there's no way I can afford that. Boo Casio you whore, why you gotta make it so expensive..
So I am probably going to get the cheaper $500 one, that still has most of the functions, but it doesn't look as nice, and doesn't have built-in Wifi connection.. but I guess I can just buy a Wifi SD card.

ok yay the bf is finally up. I am super hungry! Byebye
x

Saturday, December 14, 2013

Confession


I have a confession to make.

I've never been on a proper roller coaster.
Not even the Rainbow's End one haha
(note to self: use this in 'I Never' in the future lol)

It all started back when I was really young, before my parents started doing business, and when my mum used to work at an engineering company (yeah she's actually an engineer *shock horror* lol)
But yeah, she went to Rainbow's End with her colleagues on a company trip one day, and when she came back, she was a mess. She felt so sick she went to bed for the rest of the day.
The next day, I found out it was because of the roller coaster and the pirate ship. She said they had gone on the roller coaster first, and when she got off, she threw up non-stop and felt soo sick and it ruined her whole day. And that has scarred me till this day LOL

Travel sickness/motion sickness actually runs in our family. I used to get so carsick I had to take pills every time we went on a trip that was longer than half an hour. It's actually gotten alot better now, but I still get sick when I sit in the back seat of a car, or near the back in the bus.

But it's not only because I'm scared I will get sick. I'm also terrified of heights and I have watched too many scary movies where the roller coasters break down and everyone dies lol.. So I guess from a young age, I developed this phobia of roller coasters. It's rather embarrassing really.. which is why I don't think any of my friends know. I mean c'mon even lil kids go on them and I'm 22 for gods sake. 

Even on our family trip to Gold Coast, when we went to Dreamworld, I pretty much didn't go on any of the big rides. And early this year when I went to Ocean Park in Hong Kong with the bf, I refused to go on the big roller coasters too, and he said he wasn't gonna go by himself so it made me feel really bad. 

Which is why I think it's time to conquer my fear now. We are going to quite a few theme parks on our upcoming Asia trip so it would be such a shame to miss out again. The bf actually suggested going to try the Rainbows End one before we leave but we just haven't had the time. 

So I am writing this blog as a sort of promise to myself and to you guys, and especially to my bf that I will overcome my fear on this trip. Maybe I should get drunk and then I won't be scared anymore ha; that's actually a pretty good idea

soo yeah.. wish me luck!
And I will def blog about it afterwards ^^

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

IM GETTING A PUPPY!!!

Well not yet but sooooon!!!
Guys I am so excited!!! I can't believe my wish is finally coming true.. I've wanted a puppy for so long now and FINALLY NOONE CAN STOP ME :D

Anyways so let me start from the beginning shall I.
I just got back from a 2-day trip to Hamilton with the bf. The first day (yesterday) consisted of apartment hunting and more apartment hunting. We literally drove all around Hamilton Central, checking out some places that I had found online. I also went to check out a homestay place from Skykiwi. I don't wanna be sad but that place was so unbelievably shit, there was no way I could live there. There was no kitchen; just a very sad-looking gas stove outside the house, the room was so tiny it could only fit a single bed and the bathroom was so gross-looking I didn't even want to step inside. But the rent was only $90 a week, which was the reason that attracted me to come see it, but I guess I shouldn't have expected much for that price. It did include 500gb of internet though, which I think was its only selling point, apart from the cheap rent haha. I felt really bad though, cause it was owned by an elderly Chinese couple, and they were so nice! It was pretty hard to reject.

So after a whole afternoon of driving around and looking at apartments/flats, we went to Wong's Kitchen for dinner. Finally got to try it! I've heard so many good things about that place; some of my friends even drive down especially just to go there, so I was pretty excited about it. And yeap it did not disappoint; it was the nicest fried chicken I've ever had! They have this sweet herb-y seasoning which tastes like nothing I've tried before. lol we had no idea how big the chicken pieces were so we got 7 pieces, and then turned out that the thigh pieces are actually humongous, and I couldn't even finish one piece LOL, so it was such a waste! But at least now we know for next time lol


After dinner, we went to check out one final place from Skykiwi, which I had already made an appointment to go see. And this is the funny part. Turns out that the guy who owns that place is Brandon's friend, and we also have like 50 mutual friends. I've actually met him before too; seriously such a small world! lol and the whole time, we had been txting in polite Chinese, when we could've just talked in English this whole time haha. But yeah he's a really cool guy, and the place was decent, so I pretty much made my mind up on the spot, especially after he said he doesn't mind pets. And it's also only a 15-min walk to work :) There's actually another girl living at his place; she's called Sarah too, works at Fonterra too, and also does accounting LOL, it was almost kinda scary haha, but she seems really easygoing, so I'm sure we will get along really well.

So yeah, I'm relieved that I can finally lift that weight off my shoulder. My mum has been bugging me everyday about it too so I can finally get her off my back too lol, and yeah the thing I am most excited about of course is getting a puppy!! Soo freaking excited haha

Anyways, so the reason why I had to go down to Hamilton was actually to attend a full-day conference today at Fonterra that my manager asked me to go to, so I could meet the team and get introduced to some of the work the team does and what I would be doing, so I don't get totally overwhelmed on the first day of work. My first rotation is in Business Performance; it's kinda like management accounting, doing budgets and looking at areas of cost-saving etc (which is what I'm more interested in, compared to financial accounting). 

So it was the team's half-yearly meeting, and everyone gave presentations and we had discussions (well they did lol I just listened) talking about ways to improve personal development, successes throughout the year, tips & tricks in software programs etc. I guess I learnt alot today, so it was quite useful, although I couldn't really understand half the things they were talking about. I did learn an awful lot about milk though LOL.. seemed like everything was about milk XD



After the conference, we had a pool tournament at the RSA, and me and my partner actually came first! It was only because he was really pro haha, and we got awarded a certificate, a cute lil trophy and a bag of Favourites chocolates, oh and a pedometer (lol how ironic)

So all in all, it was a pretty productive trip. Won't be going down again until I start in January, and I will probably be moving into the flat the weekend before I start. (which is also 2 days after I get back from my holiday lol) gonna be so busy!! ><

But for now I shall look forward to my overseas trip.. which is happening in less than 2 weeks!! 
And perhaps also start puppy-hunting ;)

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Galatos Live



Working 3 nights at the bar this week.
But I'm happy because this is my last three weeks of working at the bar, so I wanna make the most out of it.
I'm really going to miss bartending.. it's the only job out of all my part-time jobs that I've actually loved.
It's been almost two years since I started working at Galatos, yet every time I work it is always a different experience.
I think I got really lucky getting his job; if I had gotten a bartending job at any other bar or club, I probably would've quit by now.
It's because Galatos is a live music venue so every week there is always something different going on; from concerts to auction nights to comedy shows to birthday parties. And I think I've probably seen a band/singer from every music genre.
It's been really awesome, and has really opened my eyes to all the talented people in NZ. Everyone (the old me included) always thinks that NZ artists are nowhere near as good as American or European artists, but it's because they haven't given them a chance. If they really tried listening to some of their music, they might not be as ignorant. For example, one of my faves that has performed at Galatos twice is Jesse Sheehan.


My fave line in this song: 'Sometimes I get so horny I could fuck the sky' haha
Really like his style of music and it's also a plus that he has a really hot drummer (cough Amanda hahahah)
And of course you have Lorde, Stan Walker, Ginny Wigmore, all who have performed at Galatos.

I remember the first time I started working at Galatos, back in March 2011 when it first opened. Galatos actually has been around for decades and was a popular spot in Auckland CBD. But business gradually declined, until eventually it was decided that it would be turned into residential apartments. Then came Andrea & Dean (my current bosses) who bought the place to prevent that from happening. Dean is actually a huge music-lover; he plays the sax and used to be in a band.  So they bought the place, refurbished it from top to bottom, and bam Galatos was re-born.

Anyways I remember the six of us girls working on the first night of the grand opening. It was so chaotic as none of us knew how to bartend. We didn't get any proper training, so pretty much had to figure everything out ourselves. Luckily, I drink a lot so I was familiar with most of the different types of spirits, beer and wine. But still it was a pretty crazy and unorganized night. We kept running out of drinks and coins for change, the Eftpos machine kept breaking down; we really had no idea what we were doing. But it all worked out in the end, and gradually we got better, management became more organized and we got busier and busier, and now we always have at least two events on every Friday & Saturday night (as Galatos has three levels) I am quite proud to say that I have brought in almost 10 events myself (mostly birthday parties) hehe

So yeah.. I really am going to miss Galatos. And Andrea is the nicest boss in the world! For a while, I even thought about buying the place when they retire in a few years but don't know how realistic that idea is haha.